EL0441 is not a broken glass.

EL0441 is not a broken glass.

The final semester of the senior BA English Language students at FEU is entirely different. To compare it to a roller coaster ride is an understatement. Sadly, I unconsciously drove the coaster towards the end, and brought it to the cliff where it was heading from the very beginning. It was almost a nightmare which I would not want to have again.

Just when the academic year neared to its end, we were all put into a trial, testing our endurance and patience, even our friendship which we nurtured for three years. The life of an Elcian could even be compared to life in hell as depicted in “The Lift that Went Down to Hell”, where the devils were depicted as ordinary sapiens.

It was a modern day drama where every character played a role, whether he liked it or not. Tears were shed, relationships were tested, faith was questioned. Nevertheless, I still believe that EL0441 is not a broken glass. There might be cracks on its surface, but we can always choose to be a new glass: clean and firm. Everyone became victims of circumstances. No one is to be blamed. At the end of the line, I still see a bright horizon. Relationships may not be restored, but a glimpse of the past would still make me smile, with the thought that it had been a very wonderful learning experience.

Now, I could not wait to whisper: Thank God, finally, it’s over. EL0441 may not be perfect, but at least, we are real.

An Open Letter to Advocate Re. the Paragon's Maiden Issue L.E.

This letter was published in the Student Elections Special of the FEU Advocate. This is written with the hope to clear the issue.

A RESPONSE LETTER TO ERIK MACAPAGAL’S LETTER TO THE EDITOR

PUBLISHED IN THE PARAGON

First and foremost, I would like to thank the Advocate for accommodating my request to publish an open letter as a response to Erik Macapagal’s Letter to the Editor in the maiden issue of the Institute of Arts and Sciences’ the Paragon. Being a campus journalist myself, I understand and would like to remind the readers that this does not in any way mean that the Advocate supports my side. Nevertheless, I view this as an opportunity to clear the dark clouds beset upon me and the pioneer staff of the Paragon.

Before I go further, it is but necessary to inform you all that a couple of days after the release of the Paragon Maiden, I have set a meeting with Renel Tatlonghari, the Editor-in-Chief and informed him how I felt about the deceitful and speculative letter and asked if I could submit a letter of response to the publication to explain my side. My request was immediately granted. However, since Para is an institute-based publication, the funding for the next issue is of no assurance especially that the target date for the second issue is set on March. It is for this reason that this response is coursed through the Advocate.

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Macapagal’s letter necessitates my immediate response as it contained in it lies and forced issues. While my concern for Para as its founding EIC is still burning within me, I have already given my full trust to Renel Tatlonghari, the new EIC and the rest of the editorial staff. I was shocked therefore upon reading Macapagal’s letter, which, aside from being uncalled for, contains in it factual errors which I would not like to believe to have been manipulated outwardly. I recognize from the very beginning that the end of the academic year 2007-2008 would mean the termination of our term in Para. With this though, I had taken necessary steps hopeful of a better leadership transition.

It was uncalled for because there was really no issue at all regarding what he called ‘alleged abrupt replacement’. Alleged is such a weak term. Not to mention, four (4) of my most industrious staff members were able to renew their affiliation and are fielded in the four important departments, which so to speak made me feel at ease and optimistic.

Specifically, I would like to correct and clarify factual errors presented, which in one way or another, made me appear in the negative light.

First, contrary to what Macapagal said, even before the academic year 2007-2008 started, I had already been contacting the Institute of Arts and Sciences Student Council. Since my term in the IASSC already ended (as the Auditor, SY 2006-2007) and the Paragon does not have a charter yet [thus the absence of independence, at least in choosing the Editorial Board and deciding on its recruitment processes], it is needed to coordinate with the mother organization, the IASSC, which would be re-proposing the project to OSACS. That time, I was hopeful that they would be continuing this noble endeavor of having an institute-wide publication which we [IASSC 2006-2007] named the Paragon. As a matter of fact, I was able to talk with Prof. Roger Bingculado, IASSC Adviser and Calvin Cortes, IASSC PRO (via SMS) who I thought will be the one in charge of the publication being the PRO. For the record, I was requesting a meeting with them so that I could officially pass on Paragon to their leadership and possibly discuss arrangements on how we plan to pursue it.

After several attempts, I was informed by Mr. Cortes that it is Macapagal who will be handling the Paragon. I then asked for his number and started contacting him. However, it was only last June 29, 2007 when we finally got the chance to talk. We held our meeting at the mini-conference of the Office of Student Affairs and Community Services, contrary to what Macapagal stated and I quote: during the first regular meeting of all the academic organizations presidents in the IASSC Office last July 21, 2007, I was given the opportunity to finally meet Mr. Uminga. Such a mental lapse concerning the date was condemning, as it may imply irresponsibility on my part. We met first at OSACS before the IASSC meeting which was held almost a month after; and such a meeting was agreed upon as it was the most convenient time for us to meet.

Secondly, I would like to correct Macapagal upon saying that “still after that meeting, none of them showed and so I finally ended the negotiation and concentrated in the new Paragon staff”. This is apparently a wrong claim since four pioneer staff writers were retained namely: Maureen Maquiddang, the News Editor, Donna Mae Catangay (Features Editor), Gabriel Angelo Kawada (Lay-Out Artist) and Jaana Joaquin (Literary Editor). Aside from them, other pioneer staffers namely: Clarice Ureta (II AB Mass Communication), Frauline Fuentes (II AB Literature), Roland Rainier Adriano (IV AB English Language) and Jessica Castro (IV AB Literature) sought for re-affiliation. Disheartening enough and much to my dismay, they were not given the opportunity to continue their service to the publication which they co-founded.

Finally, I would like to make it clear that, from the start of this academic year, I have decided not to continue my being the E-I-C, should I be re-appointed, since I was already heading a university-wide socio-civic organization known to all as the FEU Tamaraw Volunteers.

To end, I believe it is best to reiterate that we founded the Paragon out of the need for the voice of every FEU-IAS student to be heard. It is never and should not be a vehicle to advance any malicious intent or political motives. Journalists write to serve and to empower others. With this, I boldly condemn acts which would satisfy personal benefit to the detriment of what campus journalism stands for: balanced views,

As the founder of the Paragon, I would like to take this opportunity to declare to the FEU Community that while it seems late for us to have the publication, it is more than ready to take on the challenge of empowering not only the students but more significantly, the IAS and FEU administrators, in general, and the other members of our community. Excellence, as one of FEU’s core values, is something that we pursue. Not to mention, Paragon, in its literal sense, would mean model of excellence, an apt description of what the institute has become after 73 years.

Institute of Arts and Sciences is a dynamic community, one that caters to the entire university as a servicing institute. Just like any other system, ours is not perfect. With the Paragon though, rest assured that our collective goal to achieve and maintain excellence will forever be lit as long as it exists.

This letter is not written to humiliate the author of the Letter to the Editor of the Paragon maiden issue. It is, in its most sensible sense, intended as a reminder to everybody that campus journalism is a power granted to students: a power of the pen and the mind which must be paralleled with truth and fairness. I agree, with one dream and as one team, together we can make our community better.

God bless us all!

One in Student Empowerment,

(Signed)

JOHN PAUL C. UMINGA

Founding, Editor-in-Chief, The Institute of Arts and Sciences, The Paragon

2004-293581

(IV AB English Language)

FEU TAMVOL to host 1st Tamaraw Green Convergence: The FEU Student Congress for the Environment

FEU Tamaraw Volunteers is hosting the 1st Tamaraw Green Convergence: The FEU Student Congress for the Environment, the foremost gathering of student leaders at the Far Eastern University which would aspire to mobilize every member of the community to be stewards of environmental protection and sustainability. Invited speakers are Ms. Pat Gallardo of Ayala Land, Ms. Marie Marciano of the Mother Earth Foudnation, and more.

Discussion and resolution making concerning environmental issues and concerns at FEU will be conducted. For more information, contact 09156400656 or 09156907279. Expected participants are executive board members of university-wide organizations/ institute councils/ academic and non-academic organizations and NSTP Class Mayors.

TGC is to be conducted by FEU TAMVOL in cooperation with the Office of Student Affairs and Community Services.

64 days before the much-awaited march

I had been sick for almost a week already. Stressed could be a better term. What's new anyway? I couldn't wait to march at the Philippine International Convention Center this April 4. But before that, I have to huddle last minute struggles which include my solo undergraduate thesis, teaching demonstrations in TESL and INTELL and insurmountable tasks in my well-loved organizations:TAMVOL, ELC, and Sandigan.

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I have been missing writing a blog. The exact reason why I could not help but stole a few minutes while preparing for my research report for tomorrow. Yes, I have a report and [both] fortunately and unfortunately enough, English majors are tasked to do reporting in a research class which is supposed to be a writing laboratory.

Speaking of research, I could not say I am half way done. In fact, I am not finished yet with my data gathering. To be fair enough, I could say I am way contented with the meat of my RRL.

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This coming February 9, English Language Circle will be sponsoring a national summit for English Language majors. The original Feb 2 sked has been moved to give us more time for preparation. Dr. Plata of DLSU-Department of Languages and Linguistics and Prof. madriaga of FEU-Center for English Language Studies have confirmed their presence already.

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Meanwhile, FEU TAMVOL is still sponsoring a big project or two before the year ends. the proposal of the 1st FEU Youth Convergence for the Environment is already subjected to OSACS' scrutiny.

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It's only 64 days before graduation. But before it even happens, I have my filled my schedule with leadership trainings (which we
organize) with the hope of leaving a legacy in the world of Tamaraw Student Leadership before I step out of its portal. I am way too happy that Sandigan members have been very efficient in handling the demands of their responsibilities all the entire academic year.

Weber Amorez (IV BS Architecture), a good friend of mine, will be leaving this Tuesday for the 10th Ayala Young Leaders Congress.

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Bottomline: There's much to do, responsibilities to fulfill, and expectations to meet before that precious diploma (and medal/s, haha) be handed to me.
Nevertheless, I am ready to handle the pressure. :)

My Twelve Significant Events in 2007

The year 2007, to date, is probably the busiest year within the span of my existence. Events had continually challenged and inspired me which nonetheless contributed to my growth as a tao. Academic concerns, family-related affairs, and personal matters provided the colorful hues serving as magnificent leaves in my life. People, who passed and who have chosen to stay have thought me significant learning. To sum it all up, below is my list of: TWELVE SIGNIFICANT EVENTS which contributed to who I am now: (not in order)

JOSE RIZAL MODEL STUDENT OF THE PHILIPPINES (JRMSP) FAR EASTERN UNIVERSITY’S OFFICIAL NOMINEE

I was FEU Manila’s official nominee to the Knights of Rizal’s Search for the Jose Rizal Model Students of the Philippines. I am glad that after my long journey of student leadership (which is yet to end), I could say that I have already grown into a very socially responsible, patriotic and mature young man whose aspirations go beyond self encompassing national and global concerns. In the university setting, one need not be the CSO President in order to serve and be able to make a difference.

YOUTH SPEAKER IN DEPARTMENT OF ENVIRONMENT AND NATURAL RESOURCES' WORLD EARTh'S DAY MULTI-SECTORAL PLEDGE OF COMMITMENT

Being one of the founders/pioneers of the Clean Air Youth Alliance (CAYA), a loose ensemble of student organizations including: FEU Tamaraw Volunteers (TAMVOL), Ateneo Environmental Science Society (Ateneo-ESS), University of the Philippines Student Association of Valuers of Energy Resources (UP-SAVER), De La Salle College of St. Benilde Greenergy, Couples for Christ-Oikos, among others), I was privileged to be a resource speaker during the Multi-Sectoral Pledge of Commitment: Let’s Beat the Heat organized by the Department of Environment and Natural Resources as part of the World Earth’s Day celebration. It fueled the living environmentalist in my veins and inspire me to pursue graduate studies in environmental planning and management in the future.

(For a copy of the speech, visit: www.groups.yahoo.com/group/tamvol [File Section])

BOLINAO, PANGASINAN SOJOURN

After seven long years or so, I was able to join with my family in the 2007 All Saint’s Day vacation in Bolinao, Pangasinan where my mom hailed. Being a self-confessed mama’s boy myself, I enjoyed the five-day vacation in the province of the miraculous Señor Santiago despite concerns that were pressing me that time. I loved the food, the sea and its people.

REAL WORLD SNEAK PEAK: E-PLDT VENTUS JOB | TELEFLORA

Encouraged by the FEU Department of English, I together with my colleagues experienced our first real job at E-PLDT Ventus in Ortigas. While the duration was brief it still was able to give us practical training as future linguists and language/communication practitioner. Not to mention, it provided us orientation about the widely-known outsourcing industry which many of us would opt to pursue career with.

GAWAD KALINGA [GK] BAYANI CHALLENGE IN LEGASPI, BICOL

Together with three other Tamaraw Volunteers (Tony Ramos, RM Luna and Ren Alincastre), I joined this year’s Gawad Kalinga Bayani Challege in Anislag, Legaspi City, Bicol. Kuya Ralph Reuben Morales of Ayala Young Leaders Alumni extended the invitation to me; we were with Ayala Corporation delegation. Aside from experiencing real life bayanihan, I was happy to have met Ayala Young Leaders of my batch (Marvs, MR, Rap) and other students from Miriam College, Obi Montessori, Claret School, among others. It was also my furthest travel down south.

[To know more about Gawad Kalinga, visit: www.gawadkalinga.org]

SIBLINGS LEFT FOR ABROAD

Ate Yhen, my eldest sister, after finishing her undergraduate and post-baccalaureate degrees from the Polytechnic University of the Philippines Manila left to work abroad [Middle East]. She will be flying to California soon. Meanwhile, Kuya Ryan, my brother-in-law, after a month, also left for Taiwan. I want them home already.

45^{TH NATIONAL RIZAL YOUNG LEADERS INSTITUTE [NRYLI]}

This five-day conference in Baguio City stands out as among the best conferences which has influenced my being a leader. Not only did it teach its participants the value of patriotism in these times of national despair, it also succeeded in initiating values reintegration in the most insightful, comprehensive and moving manner. In response, I am inspired to establish a KAPARIZ Chapter in Manila with other delegates from the city. Moreover, for the very first time in my life, I felt uber-inspired by someone who mad me feel special [cheesy].

FIRST FEU VOLUNTEERS WEEK [A.K.A. NATION BUILDING WEEK]

Team TAMVOL 2007-2008 succeeded in organizing the 1st FEU Volunteers Week, otherwise known as the Nation Building Week, just in time for the celebration of the University's Community Service Month. Much credit is to be given to earlier batches of Executive Board headed by Mark Dean Itaralde SY 2004-2005], Kares Salendrez [SY 2005-2006] and Danilo Cortes [SY 2006-2007] for furnishing the project proposal. Expectedly, this will be an annual event to serve as celebration of youth volunteers who are contriubutors to today's society.

COKE PLANET PROJECT: A RACE TO SAVE THE EARTH 2007

Grueling with 126 registered student organizations, FEU Tamaraw Volunteers occupied one of the top ten spots for this year's Coke Planet Project. Leading Team TAMVOL, I was with RA Guillermo, Jam Molintas, Jane Tolentino, Josh Baling, Tony Ramos and RJ Jariol in a race held at SM Mall of Asia last October 20. It has been very tiring yet fully rewarding. We are planning to host our version at FEU before the school year ends and continue promoting Environmental Protection as a pressing advocacy.

[To learn more about CPP, visit: www.cokebarkada.com]

FEU INSTITUTE OF ARTS AND SCIENCES CAMPAIGN FOR PRESIDENCY

Inspired by the desire to bring about deep-level changes in the FEU-IAS, I ran for Presidency under the political party which has been instrumental in molding effective and efficient Tamaraw Leaders. The experience exposed me to the loopholes of a democaratic system contextulaized in the FEU setting as well as to the weakening values of people involved in that depressing system which calls, nonetheless, for one's strength in character. The loss is actually a victory to me as I have been privileged to head the most dynamic student organization in FEU today, the Tamaraw Volunteers. Moreover, the experience granted me my beloved ponkan family.

DREAM TEAM: SANDIGAN IAS STUDENT COUNCIL 0708

THE PONKANS

BIRTH OF THE FEU-IAS PARAGON

If there would be someone who would be so happy with the release of the Paragon's maiden issue last November 27, that would definitely be me. While we were not able to come out with an issue during my batch as founding Editor-in-Chief because of organizational financial constraints (blueprints were all ready), it elated me just well that the name Paragon (which I personally chose together with my co-officers and adviser in the IAS SC 2006-2007) is still preferred. Coming along with the birth is a controversy beset upon me via a Letter to the Editor written by an SC Officer. While the contents are deceitful, speculative and uncalled for, causing initial headaches on my part, I am appreciative that it made me realize that I have a lot of faculty mentors around me (from whom I asked guidance on my course of action) and that I must not worry watchful detractors as long as I am not doing anything bad or evil. Nevertheless, I am happy, really, to have 'brainchilded' the Paragon to serve as an instrument of change and inspiration of excellence and hope in our Institute and the entire university - a legacy which I will always cherish and look back.

IAS STUDENT COUNCIL BATCH WHICH GAVE THE NAME 'PARAGON'

PARAGON'S PIONEER STAFF

33RD YOUNG MEN'S CHRSITIAN ASSOCIATION NATIONAL CONGRESS FOR COLLEGE STUDENTS ACCOLADES

Just in time with the culmination of my student leadership life, I was awarded Outstading Delegate in the national congress for student leaders held in Baguio, plus another medal for a gabfest. YMCA has been one the more effective training grounds to me as a leader. Aside from the rare opportunity to inspire intercultural friendships with other students across the nation, this year's speakers have been perfectly responsive to the Congress theme: That All May Be One. Resolution-making, in general, has also been insightful and less brain-racking. (related blog could be found in www.jpcuminga.multiply.com entitled Charging Tams, The Blue Berries and Golds: On the 33rd YMCA National Congress for College Students: A Personal Account)

What it is to Hug a Moon

What it is to Hug a Moon

Just barely a week before the Christmas Eve, the moon could be seen carved to its fullest. It was as though the heavens prepared for it as a sort of exhibit for the viewing public whose heads were lifted up high. It awed me looking at the sight as its bright light ushered my eyes. I was gazing through the window then. Instantly feeling blue (the moon may have powers to make people sad), I thought it would be very comforting to have the moon to hug. It seemed so inviting, uniquely ethereal, magnificently real…

“But what really does it mean to hug the moon?”, I asked myself. As my eyes probed the sky, where that cosmic circle lied, I realized:

“To hug a moon requires no physical contact – at all. It is a state of mind, a silent fleeting of emotions, a feeling. To hug the moon means to dream of and pray for the impossible. For some, it is an escape, a temporal relief, a silent whisper of hope, an interminable curse. Nevertheless, it is still a choice.”

These very thoughts wet my cheeks. I know I have been hugging the moon, not just once nor twice, but several times already. In fact, at that very moment, the moon was even sitting in my lap…

-By: John Paul C. Uminga

Just a Pre-Christmas Scribbles

It is two days before Christmas. I almost haven’t noticed it. Ganun talaga siguro pag tumatanda na. After spending nine days in Baguio, I am back to reality. Thanks for NRYLI for making me a new total person (totally new means different). It is definitely the best conference I have ever attended: very transformational; thus, highly recommended. I laboured myself with my undergrad thesis for the past couple of days. It is final. I am working on a pioneer study on reflective approach using learning journals with no other than Ms. Vivian Estacio, FEU Center for English Language Studies as my adviser. Aside from the thesis, I also have to work on TAMVOL and ELC matters. I am but too happy that my two organizations, even during my absence, were still able to conduct two projects. Call it empowerment.

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Christmas is different this year. Two of my siblings would not be home since they just left for abroad to work. Nakakamiss. =’(

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Well, as things differ depending on how we look at it, I pledge to enjoy Yuletide. My aunt her family will be home for a vacation. I plan to spend the 26^th and 27^th at Kuya Ago for the TAMVOL-VfCHANGE Reunion and the 29^th with my 33^rd YMCA-NCCS friends in Laguna. More sked to fill in the remaining leaves of my organizer. Any time now, I will be posting my list of: TWELVE MOST SIGNIFICANT EVENTS IN 2007.

Charging Tams, The Blue Berries and Golds: On the 33rd YMCA National Congress for College Students

Charging Tams, The Blue Berries and Golds: On the 33^rd YMCA National Congress for College Students

A Personal Account

I just came home from a nine day- sojourn in Baguio City. Despite not being able to take my exam in the scheduled date and having missed important requirements (thesis included), such a decision dawned no regret on my part.

I spent the first five days for the 33^rd YMCA National Congress for College Students which was actually my third, if not the last. The cold weather of the City immediately as I went down the bus. At a moment, I missed Marga, Joma, and Ghe, even Ira and Sir Rog (who were both with me), my student council family, who were with me last year. Likewise, colleagues Vanj and Jill who were the first few persons I was with when I first laid foot in the Summer Capital. Jill, sadly enough, is already studying in Italy.

After boarding the unusually long jeepney and finally arriving at the Teachers' Camp, I, together with the FEU delegation waited for another four as we billeted in the venue. Surrounded by young student leaders, I realized how time passed quickly; almost unknowingly esp. for someone who is juggling several balls of responsibilities. Faces of Angela, Maverick, Daryl, Aileen and Lance were conscious reminders that time, indeed has only one direction: forward, that is. As a leader it must be paralleled with maturity or growth, if not absolute self-transformation.

TEAM FEU

Generally speaking, the Conference is aloud cry; far better than the previous year. The FEU, surprisingly enough due to the obvious decline of delegation, still performed very well managing to maintain its untarnished record in the YMCA Congress. Personally, it has been a dream come true to me having, finally, brought hiome honor to my university. It is enough reasons to forget my frustrations in SIFE National Expositions 2004 and 2005, Ayala Young Leaders (where I was a national finalist), Search for Jose Rizal Model Student of the Philippines (being FEU's official nominee) and National Scrabble Championships 2006. indeed, it has been God's calling since I really did not have plans of joining, if not for winning the CYC- and ELC-sponsored gabfest.

More notable than winning two medals, perhaps, are the stock of wisdom gained from the speakers and the invisible thread of friendship created during that short span. Below were my commission-mates who deserved, nevertheless, to be treasured:

Perlsan Gardoque (NIPSC)
Raychel Krishna Canon (University of the East Manila)

Myrthylle Karen Rey (Central Philippine University-Ilo-Ilo)
John Albert Banasa (Nueva Viscaya State University)
Joseph Potestades (Southern Luzon State University)
Freddie Caday (ISCAF)
Jessica Biasca (Bicol University)
Felipa Oliquino (Bicol University)
Bethany Magno (University of Baguio)
Ericson Valdez (University of Baguio)
Jessica Bioasca (Bicol University)
Jenyca Maravilla (Bicol University)
Mark Valladolid (Bicol University)
Aja Sagala (MPCF-LC)
Abegail Claravall (Bicol University)
Claudio Meniable (Eastern Visayas State University)
Micheelle Sy Juco (University of the East Caloocan)
Raul Durante (LSPU)
Daryl Pauline Patubo (Far Eastern University Manila)

I enjoyed very much the company of Albert (NVSU) who was with me in the Tuklas Talino where we almost bagged the gold if not for occasional mental lapses. Karen, a very sweet girl from CPU-Ilo-Ilo (an AYLA), modern Krishna from UE Manila and simple Beth, an Igorot folk, and the rest of the guys, were part of the reasons why I loved the congress more than the 31^st and the 32^nd.

THE OUTSTANDING DELEGATES

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At the end of the congress, FEU remained victorious havibng bagged tewn Outstanding Delegates awards, a gold medal for extemporaneous, Best Debater individual title, and a bronze in essay writing. It just proves to show that FEU delegation does not only rely on quantity but on quality of its leaders. Afterall, it is not the achievements that count, but the development of one's leadership skills and the opportunity to widen one's sphere of influence that matter most.

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as a tradition, FEU hosted a culminating party for all the delegates. After munching a couple of chicken breasts, I went back to the cottage and pampered myself with a good night sleep. Well, it had just been timely enough to help me re-energize for the next conference: the 45^th National Rizal Youth Leadership Institute.

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Special mention to Arvin, Aran and Erik, my roommates (salamat sa pananakot sa kin!), Angela, Jane, Aileen, Daryl (mga bunso na nakitulog sa room namin dahil sa takot), Sir Gene, Maam Ala, Sir Joey and Sir Rog (for taking care of the FEU delegation and for the food), CYC Officers headed by Chubby (for ensuring everything was smooth), the entire delegation (who know who you are) and the FEU Community whom we dedicate this achievement. =)

Give a little love....

The Coke Planet Project 2007 was finally over. While we were not able to top the race held at SM MOA, I remained contented as indespicably, this was already an achievement for FEU TAMVOL having qualified as one of the ten finalists (there were 126 registered orgs)

The race last Saturday had been fun and insightful. This was the second time that FEU TAMVOL joined in an inter-school competition (First was in SIFE: Regional Exposition and National Expo). I am thinking of conducting our version at FEU. I am pretty sure this would be a creative venue to raise awreness among the tams regarding environmental issues.

Team TAMVOL was composed of Jane, RJ, Tony,

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A couple of days before the Coke Event, Arvin, Mina, Chai and I spent the night in Malate. I missed orange bonding moments with my co-candidates in IASSC 0708 who I consider family already. In the afternoon, tay Mike and Joma treated me in Yellow Cab Morayta. I must admit I missed these two guys. They were two of my presidents when I was still young as a student leader. Joma’s with UST Law while Mike’s a language trainer.

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TAMVOL officers who attended a conference in Singapore are back already. I hope they can apply whatever they learned from the international confab. RJ, RG, Sarah, Dino and Ren surely have a lot of stories to tell. Not to mention, aside from the confab, they enjoyed the luxury of an Asian tour.

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Meanwhile, I attended the launch of the School for School program of ABS-CBN’s E-Media last October 16. I was with Angeli of FEUCSO and Kendi of Theta Kappa Rho. It was my first time there and I immediately enjoyed its physical environment. As someone who has been involved with community service for quite a long time though, I admit I don’t perfectly like the said program. Just the same, I am ready to provide assistance to Bicol through TAMVOL.

The devil in me...

The devil in me…

7 November 2007 at FEU Library

My mind is clattered like never before. I feel like I will have system breakdown anytime now. If I could just shutdown my system my access to the physical milieu, I would have done it long before. Now I know how it is to be human-mechanical. Ateneo’s Prof. Mau was right when she called me (our demo teaching group) robotic right after our teaching experience. I knew it and I hate it. This has been my comfort zone and I want to get out of it: try another one then leave when I can already sit pretty. I don’t understand you, you might tell me. I care less each day. Afterall, I grew tired pleasing people.

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Good thing I know how to write. For years, this has been the channel of my emotions, don’t get me wrong. I don’t blog for people to read. I do blog because I have to let go of the little devils inside cursing and tearing me apart each day. I do it for good. Call it writing therapy.

Today:

I already enrolled my 15-unit subjects. For the second time, I felt like a stranger walking through the fabled FEU grounds.

I received an SMS from a contact center. Telling me my interview sked set tomorrow. I will have my first class by then though. Hope they approve on my rescheduling request.

I’ll go to PUP after FEU to get my laptop from tita. I badly need it for organizational academic paper works. My desktop at home is still in the repair shop.

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I’m bleeding.